Roughly 9 months ago my father was diagnosed with rectal cancer. I didn’t think someone so strong and so nice could go through such a painful process. My father was the nicest and the strongest person I knew, but this cancer truly changed him. The weekends turned from not going to car shows anymore because he was too weak, to even not watching football anymore because the cancer made him so tired. How could something so bad happen to someone so good? My life had totally turned upside down because of what happened to my father. This cancer was truly killing him and I never had imagined my father becoming weaker. My father lost weight so fast that he lost all his strength. He kept pushing through it though. It hurt to see my father, once a happy and strong man now turning to a depressed and weak man. This truly hit my mom very hard, my role model was becoming weak too. We discussed and talked about everything that was happening, my mom couldn’t stay strong, and she broke down. Many times she couldn’t bear the thought of losing her best friend.
Recently we discussed what will happen when and if he dies. We already have all the plans thought out and are basically “ready” for him to die. How could someone I’ve looked up to my entire life be sick and is dying right in front of me? How could God do this to him, to my mom, to me? Having to see this all happen truly changed my view on what can happen to people. No one, no matter how good of a person you are, can go through the worst pain ever imaginable.
-Joshua Bradley